Heh, it taught me an important lesson to always temper my hype for things a bit better - no worries. Rather than seeming like an ettin fighting with itself when I express personal apprehension, hah.
Sounds like life took a turn for the worse for you for the mostpart - sometimes those sort of changes are circumstances people can thrive under if you get into the right groove though, if you remember Darshan/Zentor he was in a similar situation and as happy as a clam, or the closest Zentor facsimile thereof, with it.
Seems like it would suck badly to me though, but some people make it work well.